Saturday, November 18, 2006

I'm not superwoman

I'm not superwoman...
Do you ever come to the point saying that line to other people? I don't know why? but it seems that people saw me as a tough person. Someone who just don't know how to cry, be wounded and failed. But I'm not that kind. In fact I'm a cry baby ever since I was born. Iyakin talaga ko I swear. My tears even flow while watching movies and some stuff. People don't just see it. Someone said to me that I'm lucky because I don't experience problems, failures and hardships in life. But that's not true. We all have our own problems, that's part of life. If you don't have it you will not grow. I do have problems. I encounter lots of them, that's  why I'm growing spiritually, mentally and emotionally. I'm not a kind of person who share or talk about my problems with others. As much as I can I handle it my own. I try to solve it in my own way. (I guessed that's one thing I've learned from my parents, since they trust me to decide for my own.) One of my friend ask me, "bakit nakukuha mo pang tumulong sa problema ng iba kung may mga sarili ka ring problema?"...maybe because I realized that its more easy to solve the problem of other people than my own, it also helps me forgot my problems, and on the process of helping other, I realized how simple my problems are compare to those who suffer more than I do. Helping other also helps me.
When I was in college I encounter a problem. I thought I was hopeless, that I can't do anything about the situation. What I've done is to cry, cry and cry in my room. Blaming my self and feel more hopeless. Until my brother said to me, "anong ginagawa mo?, I didn't expect na ganyan ka kahina...maliit ng problem lang yan. Hindi masosolve yan ng pag-iyak!"...and then he left me with a text message.."if you wanna be somebody, if you wanna go somewhere you better wake up and pay attention"... Then I realized that I'm just making things worst. Crying did not solved my problem, it just consume my time for nothing instead of using that time thinking how to solve the problem. Crying is not bad but its not also the solution. So, I tried to change how to view problems.

It is really good to know that someone believe that I can survive life challenges.

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